I once thought I was in love with you. I was joyful at the sight of you and then pained all at once, remebering that you are not mine to hold. I often wonder what might have happened if you felt the same. Now, if I was indeed in love, has it gone or is it simply hibernating somewhere deep inside of me? Will it again awaken one day and come to haunt me at an inappropriate time? What if your affections did turn towards me one day (which I choose to doubt)? What would happen then? Did I create this myself? Is it something I, myself, choose to accomplish or was it the natural pattern of events? Perhaps it is just less painful this way and pain is something I'd rather avoid. At any rate I don't feel what I once did, but tomorrow I might wake up feeling differently. I leave that matter in God's hands. It is no longer mine to hold.
Traveling in a van on a secondary highway to Eckville!
-SheL
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