I do believe that this has been one of the hardest seasons that I have encountered as a Christian. I stand firm in my belief that we become stronger, wiser and more beautiful after walking through the fire and therefore I can see the reason for this season. It's my faith that has carried me through- I know that Papa is here with me encouraging me onward. It's been hard - it's been rather lonely and I am baffled to the point of not knowing what's a dream and what's reality when facing those moments that all the events become somewhat overwhelming.



April 28, 2001
(I am not sure who wrote it - I didn't include the author)
"The journey involves bringing our wounded heart before God, a heart that is full of rage, overwhelmed with doubt, bloodied but unbroken, rebellious, stained and lonely. It does not seem possible that anyone can handle, let alone embrace our wounded and sinful heart. But the path involves the risk of putting into words the conditions of our inner being and placing those words before God for His response. The Lord has promised He will not put out the flax or break the broken reed (Isaiah 42:3) But promises have been made before by a supposedly trustworthy person and we swore betrayal was the last we would ever allow our soul to experience. The obstacle to life is the conviction that God will damage and destroy us. The problem is that the path does involve His hurting us, but only in order to heal us."