I have come to the realization that if I am not in touch with God I can’t be in touch with myself. If I am not in touch with myself I cannot be in touch with God. If I not in touch with either God or myself I cannot be fully in touch with other people. When I am not in touch with other people, God or myself I tend to retreat more and more into myself. When I retreat into myself I lose the ability to commit to the moment and reality becomes dream-like and unimportant. I need to keep reminding myself at these times that the moment is taking place and I am going to miss it utterly, never to be repeated. When I lose touch with the moment I no longer feel creative and everything begins to feel rehearsed and old and I begin to lose touch with my artistic nature. When I lose touch with my artistic nature I no longer feel like myself and start to lose touch with who I am.

People often talk about the balance. That doesn’t quite feel like the right interpretation. It’s more of a circle: a wheel if you will. When one part is out of balance so is my life; my person. The task: get my wheel back in shape!